
Dedicated to beforethestormx31. youtube.com please, don't ever leave us. Really simple editing. I have come to a point where I can't stand it anymore. I mean, my life is fucking cruel. Everyone I know lives fucking miles away from me, all I keep having are disappointments after disappointments, and it just fucking hurts. I have depression and an ED. Most people don't know that, and I really don't know why I am admiting all of this on Youtube but I feel that people here will understand, unlike facebook, where they'd just throw it back at my face. I was bullied since I was 8, and that led me to move school and start this whole new life. I can't live anymore. Everyone I know is pretty and skinny and perfect. Hanging around the streets looking like a dog is just painful. Seeing other people getting into relationships hurts. Because I know I'm not attractive and it won't happen to me, ever. Not even with someone that's more fucked up than me. I just ain't able to move apart from what I look like. I am fat and I am not attractive. And I think the only good things in my life are my mother (which is going through a hard time aswell) and tumblr. From the deepest of my heart, I wished I could say ''youtube'' but no. I have almost 400 subscribers and 40 of them watch my videos. 5 of them comment. It makes me feel like a failure, as if my work isn't good enough and I know that it isn't.. It gets on my nerves, honestly. Then there's family, that's more teared apart than ever. I don't <b>...</b>
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